Just when I’ve changed my mindset and ready to move on, you changed your mind. Just when I’m ready to accept you again, you change your mind again.
It’s hard to have to know what you want in love but have your partner being indecisive and not willing to take the challenge and you having to be at the top of the cliff. You either celebrate your success climbing all the way to the top, or fall to your death.
Love is profound.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. (NIV)
I’m thankful to have gone through this journey, knowing you and being with you. Of the many times I’ve told you, it is for you to accept, understand and overcome your worries, feelings and emotions.
Being depressed is a definite emotion. You can’t possibly ask me to be happy when a week ago, you told me that I was worth trying for. A week later, you gave up. Yes, you’re playing with my emotions. But because of love, I was willing to go through thick and thin with you. I can’t say what might happen during this period. All I can hope for is miracle…
Yet I told myself, this will be the last chance. This will be it. Of the past breakups, I know that you’ll always be back to my side no matter what. Hoping that you’ll be a better person each time you come back and hoping that you’d probably learnt that you make sacrifices for love. This time, you gotta think it carefully. It’s your last chance. I’ll give you till the 29th of Jan to think through. Find out what you want. Don’t let your mind overwrite your heart. Let your heart lead the way…
You’re always saying and doing things in a moment of impulse and then regret it. 29 Jan will be a beginning or ending.. To sprout or to bury, the decision lies with you..
Don’t be stressed just because you know what’s my decision. Don’t think about what’s best for me. Don’t think about your past relationships and compare them. Don’t think about what you can and can not do for me. Don’t worry about the future – what might happen to me if you leave before me, blah blah blah. Its a really simple question really. “Are you willing to live with this person for the rest of your life?” For once, just be selfish and think about yourself. When you do that, you’d be amazed by your desires and decisions. I may not have that years of experience like you do. But I think I’m wise enough to know what I want in life and in love.
1 Corinthians 16:13, 14
Stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. Do everything in love. (NIV)
On the side-note, you’re such an asshole for ruining my mood just when I’m working on my lesson plans. Your timing can never be better. What a mess you’ve made me into.